“Man can do what he wills but he cannot will what he wills.” ― Arthur Schopenhauer
Do you feel more fulfilled living purposefully or letting the day unfold naturally? Do you try to manage every minute or can you enjoy some idle time and not feel like you’re wasting it?
I’m one of those people that for years and years would plan my day accordingly so as not to "waste” any time.
Leisure time was fine as long as it was in pursuit of some goal. Family time meant I was being a good dad. If I was going to read it would be for self-improvement (nonfiction only). If I was exercising it was at the gym to maximize my time. No tennis or golf for me!
My view of time was, I better be deriving some value from it otherwise I was just “wasting” it.
After years of meditation (in the pursuit of a calm mind), I realized that I could focus my time “wastefully” just for the pure pleasure of the experience.
Today, I woke up early after a bad night’s sleep that I track on my Whoop. I meditated for 20 minutes, took a long walk outside while listening to an audible book (Die With Zero
which I’m loving), and completed a 20-minute Peloton workout prior to my cold shower
Then, I jumped into a meeting and onto my microphone to record several podcasts, as well as get some other work done.
Around 2:00 PM I broke my intermittent fast and had a light lunch. I then recorded another podcast interview and knocked out my emails for the day.
What does all this pathological productivity and self-discipline accomplish for me? If we are the sum of all the moments in our lives, was today productive or actually “wasted?”
Am I being too hard on myself? At what point are these “good habits” no longer serving me, but detracting from my life?
Why keep creating more passive income if I can’t fully enjoy it?
Tonight, I will try to just enjoy good food, and conversation and begin again. I get another 24 hours tomorrow (hopefully) to be more intentional than I was today about enjoying my day to the fullest.
Tomorrow I will try to find at least a few hours to live less productively, less purposefully, and get out of my comfort zone.
Tomorrow I’ll carve out some time to live joyfully just for the pleasure of a few hours with nothing to strive for and see how that feels.
No deals to close, no meetings to attend, no books to read, no exercises to complete. A few hours of “wasted” time.
Wish me luck…
I hope this reminds you to be more mindful of how you’re “spending” your own time and make sure some of it is on what you value the most…
“We might seek to incorporate into our daily lives more things we do for their own sake alone–to spend some of our time, that is, on activities in which the only thing we’re trying to get from them is the doing itself.” Oliver Burkeman- Four Thousand Weeks